It Sounds Like a Sad Song But Really Its Just Alt-80s Boston

So, this post is about growing up and I feel it goes best with the song "Blue Thunder" by Galaxie 500. As I sit here watching "I Love New York 2" (!) waiting for "America's Most Smartest Model" to be on, I can't help but think how different I am from a) black people b) who I used to be. That sounds really emo but like... yeah it is. But seriously things have changed. I am living for me. Just read my college essays. No seriously. ESSAYS! For COLLEGE! What fun!

But, I realized, finally, that you don't have to impress everybody all the time. For the first time, I really happy, not content because thats different, with where everything is in my life. Sure, I'vr spent over ten hours at a B-university library this week, I haven't seen my house or parents in the daytime, and I'm way behind on college apps, but it's all okay with me. I thrive under pressure anyway.

I bring this up because yesterday saw another meeting with Are They Married? and my parents and me. It was to decide what goes in my portfolio. Since this round of meetings started two weeks ago, I hadn't really heard anyone come out of it and be all happy. But, I digress. We didn't actually pick anything because... well long story short: Everything is portfolio worthy. It's really nice to get complements like that especially since its what I want to do. It's nice to have that support. It's nice to know that someone has that much faith in you. It's nice.

This is SOOOO emo. But anyway, I think my positive outlook on life is really working. I honestly didn't think it would last this long. And yes, reader(s), this is positive. I may not let everything roll off my shoulders, like the DOUCHE incident with the biggest douche ever, someone is not Yale worthy, but like I kind of only care about the people I care positively about. I think that makes sense. No?

"America's Most Smartest Model" is on. I doubt that guy is really the Denis Ivanovich (Google it!) he's making himself out to be.