Don't read this, it's not worth it.

Well this will be my first blog from the big ham town, so I’m hoping it’s good and not as depressing as someone’s latest attempt… but we all know how Produce Pete and I share that special bond that means we tend to always relate to each other. Let me set up this scene for you… right now I am sitting on a black leather chair in the hallway of the lecture hall building awaiting my pop rock and soul class to begin. It’s a relatively empty hallway and only about four other people are sitting on these chairs near me. It probably seems emptier to me than it actually is though because I always feel like I’m the only one around. The floors are white and the walls are off-white, and the doors are covered with flyers. But really all that matters is that I’m here alone as usual. Okay, maybe this seems like a pity party, but ProP told me if I write out everything I’ve been thinking, I’ll feel better (props to PP for being a bit emotional). But this empty hallway gives me a familiar feeling because Treng Pak never showed up, and I have an empty dorm room when I get back to my “home away from home.” Empty and lonely seem to be the only words that come to mind when I describe my college experience thus far. I mean when people ask me how its going I say, “it’s great! I love it here. I feel so like independent.” But in reality we all know that translates to, “it’s okay, I mean I miss home but I guess the alone time can be nice.” Whatever, I guess it’s only the first week, so the melancholy attitude should just fade away eventually; but, another well-known fact about me is that I don’t do well with change. When I get a roommate, will I be okay? Will she annoy me? Will we even talk? Will I ever like, make friends? Unanswerable questions, I know. But those questions have been haunting my thoughts… yes I’m exaggerating. But what do you expect? Whatever. Whatever. That’s all I can really say. So yeah. That’s my life. I’m done boring you with my depression haha. I’ll talk to you all soon? And I’ll be posting a new blog about some happy thing or something when that happens. (aka- after the first episode of gg.)

Xoxo,
Fraulien