Contemplating Life...

So i'm uber exhausted from this sunburt week because of a kickass GNO! (a quick thanks to Hannah Montanna for that abbreviation), an amazing BJ at Shea, and a late-night date with biffies and the Dark Knight. All of these events were memorable and totally worthy of "What I did over my summer vacation" essays. But today I'm not going to recap this weeks events, I'm going to look to the future.

In the upcoming weeks we'll dress like hipsters and venture off the St. Rose Fair. We'll watch stupid movies and eat taco dip. We'll spend time at the beach and watch I Love Money. We'll do the same things but we'll all change. We'll be here, and then we won't. And to me that's the weirdest and most ridiculous thought. This is that summer that we all have heard about. "The best summer of our lives." The summer before everything changes. To me, it's going pretty smoothly and I'm enjoying myself. But at any given moment I can begin to upset myself for no reason. I look around at all of the people in my backyard, sitting around hold their hands up and embarassing each other, and I become depressed. Okay, maybe depressed is too harsh, but you get the idea. As IdA said, "relationships are hard. It's hard to find one. It's hard to be in one. It's hard to stay in one." Now if I understood IdA correctly, he was talking about relationships in the love sense... but I'm talking about the relationships we all have with each other. Over the past year, all of us have become the best of friends, (awwwz) and, unfortunately, we're all going to be away from each other very soon. I can't stop myself from constantly thinking about how different it will be the gang in all different places. And I can't help but wonder if we'll all put in the work we need to to keep out relationships strong. What will it be like next summer? Will the blog survive the year?

These questions have been tormenting me all summer, so i figured since the topic of the day was relationships and girl talk, I'd let you all know how I've been feeling. I know these are unanswerable questions and I know we just have to live one day at a time. But, change tends to scare me. And just as a sidenotee, girl talk really is a good thing, you should all try it sometime. And I love gabbing about our lives before the gang.


Peace, Love, and Batman,
Fraulein.